or maybe I can
climb a castle
a tall stony
haven with a
history of
prevention
and tall tall
lookouts where
I can see danger
from days away.
yes. a castle with
a deep deep moat
that no one person
can cross save
maybe a boat
and I will quiver
my sharp sharp arrows
and raise my flag high
very high.
a drawbridge, a deep deep moat, and no more.

I’m tempted to pancakestack
my fears into nothing.
nothing. where we won’t
see them and nobody will
know. nobody.
where I don’t have to answer
you and I don’t have to deal
with him and all the
quicktriggered onlookers.
it is simple for them.
it is always so simple
and it always will be.
But I will give of myself
no more.
I will take my fears,
each one, a perfectly round
and delicious pancake
and I will eat them one and all.
until they exist no longer.
Yes. I will eat them.
And I will be toomuch full forever.