I Can’t Understand That It Ever Will

up and around her neck
she pulled your arm
I drink more
my lonliness crawls up my spine
through my stomach and clutches
my heart
I have to sit down
lean back
how does it come so naturally
to so many?
does it really
work that way?

with 33 years of history
I can’t understand that it ever will
thirty three years
working against me
and I can’t imagine that it ever will